This poor 2nd baby of mine is already being neglected....I blogged so much when I was pregnant with Rhowan and as she was growing each month. It is just so different your second time around. I keep finding myself saying that, but my friends and family have so nicely been reassuring that yes it is and it's not just me! I often find myself thinking, OMG, how am I going to do this with 2? Are we doing this too close together (Rhowan and the new baby will only be 20 months apart!), but you know what, I need to focus on what a huge blessing it was to get pregnant on our own without even trying and remember what joy being a mommy brought to my life and stop worrying about other stuff. Easier said than done, sometimes the anxieties overtake my excitement for this new blessing, but I know it will all be good. Rhowan will adjust and eventually be very happy to have a baby sister to play with. She is such a loving and playful little girl that she will be a great big sister!
Enough of my tangent and back to the update. I am almost 7 months along...I had a dr appt yesterday. My weight gain is going faster with this one than it did with Rhowan...I have already gained almost 20 lbs with this one, which is totally stressing me out and that is putting it lightly. I refuse to gain more than 30 so I started walking 45 minutes a night or day last week! I am still weighing in less than I was when I found out I was pregnant with Rhowan, but I am literally having nightmares that I will have a hard time fitting back into my clothes I just got back into after this baby! I had for the first time felt great about myself, my weight, shopping, etc. that I want to make sure I get to that again. So I will be purchasing that double jogging stroller sooner than later! :) Baby is moving more now, I was worried because she seems calmer than Rhowan was in my belly. She really likes to let me know she's awake when I'm laying down to go to bed! hmmmm, is that a hint for what's in store?! Everything looks and sounds great according to the dr, but next appt, in April, she wants to do another ultra sound to be sure it's a girl. Yep, just to be sure! She asked me if we knew the sex, I told her what the tech told us, but we got no pics this time, she got them all, so she said she wanted to do one next appt to take a look! Wouldn't that be funny if they were wrong?! Not really, but kind of. I guess better now than later when the room is officially done, etc.!
No, still no name...I know, people ask and its like we hardly talk about it, but then again we hardly see each other and I hardly have time to even feel or be preggo right now. Or maybe its because my mind is just hard set on what I want it to be?! :)
I can't believe how fast our lives will change in a matter of a few months. It is and will be baseball season still when the baby arrives, so I am stressed about that. I told my sister yesterday, as much as I'd love to give her the experience to be in the delivery room with both moms, assuming TJ won't be there, I really need her to be my caretaker for Rhowan the entire time I am in delivery and in the hospital. She loves my sister and the Baca Family and gets so excited to see them and is truly comfortable with her, so knowing she is in good hands is my #1 priority. I know what you are all thinking, why are you stressing about all this. Because PEOPLE, I worry, I plan and I hate not knowing if my husband will be there (hoping he's not career wise!) I need to know my baby will be ok! :)
Then there is the after part...She is due June 12th, TJ hopefully goes to College World Series shortly after, David goes with to support, MIL stays home to help me and Rhowan. Then my family goes on a nice and wonderful cruise without me for a week or so and TJ's parents go on a trip the same week!!!! AHHHHHHH, can you say I freaked, ok, cried when I realized this. Not that by any means I want anybody to put their lives or vacations on hold for me, I am just freaking out, how will I take care of 2 when Rhowan is still so dependent on me. Does it just come naturally to her and me that there is a new baby? Will we all adjust ok? Please don't mis read this that I am not happy or excited, I am just a worry wart!!!! LOL.
I know all will turn out ok, we have been so truly blessed and everything has worked out for us so wonderfully so I am sure I have nothing to worry about. We have so much love and support around us, that I am eternally grateful for. I am just venting and letting you all into my brain that goes 100 mph all hours of the night! :)
Well that is about it on our end. It is now time to start Spring Cleaning, preparing for baby #2, getting house ready, room ready, etc! The fun part! :)
Love to you all! Til next time...
xoxo,
The Bruce's
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